“Now Naaman was commander of the army of the king of Aram. He was a great man in the sight of his master and highly regarded, because through him the LORD had given victory to Aram. He was a valiant soldier, but he had leprosy.” 2 Kings 5:1
Listen to Left Out
First I knocked. Then I went from knuckle to fist pounding. “Open up. Let me in!” A shuffle of feet sounded and then laughing.
“No! Go away.”
I didn’t want to go away. I wanted to spend time with my friends, not be banned from the fun.
“Come on, please? Open up.”
“No! We voted and you’re out. Beth shoulda been the leader.”
Leaning against the wall, a tear trickled down my cheek. My name had finally rotated around to be the group leader. The announcement wasn’t an hour old before the fly-by friends sold me out for the popular girl. Group leader wasn’t an elected position, rather it rotated so everyone had an opportunity to lead…everyone but me it seemed.
Left out, I snatched up my backpack, pushed open the door and headed down the stairs. It wasn’t fair. It was my time to be the group leader, my time to shine. I just wanted to be something other than invisible, something other than…lonely.
Naaman was an elite guy, commander, highly regarded. He had everything going for him –everything but his health. It didn’t matter how special he was, how many battles he’d won, his leprosy secluded him. He was forced to be alone. And unless he was healed, nothing would change.
Years later I asked the requirements to join a prestigious writers group. When my friends avoided the question, naivety led me to assume the group was full. My friends cheered for me so I practiced my writing—even won a couple of writing contests and hoped a spot would open in the group. But when my pal finally came clean and told me the group said I “wasn’t ready,” (intrepretation: not good enough), my heart was broken. Not because I wasn’t welcomed into the group but that no matter what I did–all the work, all the accomplishment, even the victories, meant nothing. I was still invisible, still left out.
Unlike Naaman, I wasn’t secluded due to illness, but I’ve been forced out because I wasn’t “ready yet”, not prestigious or clickish enough. Regardless of how hard I banged on the door, I couldn’t get in.
Broken, I needed healing – cleansed of the insecurities and fears that made me feel inadequate. So I poured my heart to the Great Physician. He opened up the wounds, cleansed them and when I was ready, He proved my gift was not in being in the spotlight, but rather in being a servant. In time He healed me and revealed my special and unique gifts. Eventually I became part of this prestigious group but all it is…is a line on my resume’. After He healed me, I didn’t need that group to fill the void. My place was in Him.
When you’re pushed out, ignored and shunned go to Christ for internal healing. He will shore up your skills, bring you peace and acceptance, then show you where you belong.
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