In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. ROMANS 8:26 NIV
My friend suffers daily. He’s had a devastating illness for several years and I have been praying faithfully for his healing. Frustrated that God didn’t seem to be listening to my prayers, I turned to a colleague who suggested I might stop praying for healing and start praying for the acceptance of my friend’s illness. I knew I should be open-minded to his advice, but it was hard. I loved my friend.
My heart wrestled with the idea of giving up, so I decided to go for a walk on my treadmill and relieve the stress. The discman attached to my treadmill hadn’t worked in months, but I was desperate to block the sound of my own negative thoughts. I tried every CD I could find, but none of them worked. Leaving the last CD in the player, I eventually gave up.
That evening I picked up a pamphlet on prayer and read: “Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Though I found comfort in the words, my friend’s advice haunted me.
The next morning I decided to try the treadmill once more. I prayed for my friend’s healing once again but doubt crowded my mind. I pushed the thoughts aside and asked God to prove to me I shouldn’t give up. I smiled as I eyed the play button on the treadmill discman. My finger inched over the button and pushed. Immediately the numbers lit and the music blared. “Renew my faith; restore my joy.”
Give your doubts to God and watch him renew your faith and restore your joy.
Joyce McCullough teaches Honors English at Coffee County Central High School in Manchester, Tennessee. She is active in her church and community and enjoys playing the piano, attending book club meetings, and reading to her nieces. She has been a freelance writer for the past fifteen years for numerous publications including Alive, The Cumberland Presbyterian, and Focus on the Family. She is currently looking for a publisher for her children’s book.
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