What happened was so unfair. I didn’t deserve to be treated so poorly.
I thought my women’s Bible study group would choose me to lead the group when our leader resigned. They didn’t. I was overlooked for something I counted on. I didn’t understand. Since I had been in charge of so many things in the past, I thought I was more than qualified. I even planned my acceptance speech. Did I do something? Was there someone who didn’t like me? I thought these women were my friends. How could they turn their backs on me?
I am discouraged, dejected, lost, and alone on my journey. People who are unaware of how I feel surround me. If they knew, they wouldn’t know what to say. Some would slip away rather than feel uncomfortable with my pain. I can’t seem to move forward. I don’t know which way to go. My head is spinning. I cry out to the Lord to give me strength to get through one more day. I thought these women were my friends. How could they not be there for me? I asked Jesus if He felt that way when Peter wasn’t there for Him.
I hear the Lord whisper to my heart, “My Child, you can’t change the past or see into the future. You must turn your back on what was and walk toward the light. The further you get toward the light—your future—the more the rejection of the past will fade, becoming only a memory. An amazing life awaits you. Move forward. Don’t look to others for encouragement. They are not capable of meeting your needs. Only I know the secrets of the heart, so open your mind and soul to Me. I will pour fragrant oil over you, a fresh anointing, suitable for each one I send to you. Remember, I stood alone, rejected by those closest to Me. At the time of My deepest need, everyone left me. Leave everything to me. Your life is in My hands.”
If you’re struggling to fit in—trying to make something happen that only God can—give your hopes and ambitions to Jesus. And when you are alone and discouraged, Jesus has the answers you seek.
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Judy Linck is a registered nurse who has fifteen years in the psychiatric field. For many years, she has volunteered in her church’s counseling ministry, offering hope to those who struggled with depression, anger, grief, and other personal struggles. She writes what she hears the Lord speak to her heart. At the present time, she is writing a book filled with other words the Lord has spoken to her. Her book will be titled, My Jesus, My Child. She can be emailed at myjesusmychild@gmail.com.