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The hair dryer broke, and my pants felt tighter than the day before.

I wanted to look nice each day, but regardless of my efforts, I always saw a fat, ugly person staring back at me in the mirror. Why I felt this way was a deeper secret. I reflected upon my childhood when I didn’t consider my looks. I swam like a fish until I was wrinkled, climbed trees to the top, and refused to wear a shirt until I was eight. I was a typical tomboy. One day, a teenage boy led me into the nearby woods. What he did changed my self-image forever. I didn’t tell anyone. I just tucked it deep inside.

When I read that God was in my mother’s womb, knitting me together to make me perfect in Him, I understood it didn’t matter what happened to me in this life because He was my life. He told me I was wonderfully made. I had seen these verses before, but one day, I understood them in a new way.

I had once accepted that deep-seated pain that led me to deny my identity in Christ. I doubted my usefulness to Christ, and I let the world tell me my outward appearance dictated my value in Him.

Like sin, we can keep these lies or let them go and allow God to work in our lives. Today, I have changed the person I see in the mirror. My self-talk is full of love and encouragement. I have a wonderful identity in Christ. I am a child, warrior, heir, and more. I will not doubt my usefulness. I will be a tool for Jesus every day in any way He asks. I will not put importance on my outward appearance any longer but rather focus on my heart and service for God.  

What has the world convinced you of? Read this psalm daily until you are convinced of who you are in Christ: For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; I know that full well.

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