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When I was three years old, my father left us. My little heart got shattered into millions of pieces. When I came to God in my early twenties through watching a Christian television program, my salvation was radical. I grew spiritually at lightning speed. I spent my first months in front of the Christian television channel, soaking up every word like a sponge until I had to leave the United States to return to my home country of Estonia.

I continued to grow spiritually in Estonia by translating for foreign missionaries and teachers. I soon began to teach myself, especially about prayer, but something was eminently missing. I did not know God as love.

Although I had been open to spiritual truths, hanging on to every word I read in the Bible, I had not been introduced to the heart behind those words. I was not familiar with love.

I was quite harsh toward myself and others. Since my father betrayed me as a little girl, my heart got locked up to true intimacy and devotion. I did not think I had a claim on love. Although I did not reason this way, the Father revealed to me the perceptions of my heart.

Later, my heavenly Father opened my eyes and heart to His love. He instructed me to read my Bible. I wrote out Scriptures for myself, replacing the word God with love. This made them personal as though my Father were speaking solely to me. I cried every time I read through the text I had drafted. God quickened my heart to His passionate affection. He pulled down the walls I had built around my core to protect myself from further sorrow, disappointment, and the distress of rejection.

My passionate Father took me by the hand and led me on a journey with Him. During this pilgrimage, I was intimately introduced to His love. This journey broke the chains that had kept me captive for so long. It transformed my life, outlook, ministry, relationships, and even my finances.

You have been made for an intimate relationship with God. Let Him take you on an adventure through this life with His love.