Who knew that the songs I loved hearing my daughter sing and play on the piano would bring me to tears in the most unlikely and inconvenient places? Like the gym, a restaurant, the grocery store, or in the middle of a visit with friends. Getting past those intense moments of extraordinary pain and missing her is not a smooth transition. I wish it were easier. My mind can easily wander into one rabbit hole after another, following her memories and chasing her presence.
Sometimes I feel angry that a song came on the speaker, leaving me feeling this way when I want to feel the peace of God that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:17). But how do I get there? Where is the smooth transition that brings me from this present world into the truth of God’s promises?
Remember that Indiana Jones moment when he steps out over the jagged mountain cliffs and trusts that he will be supported? He took that step of faith. Took that step in faith, with active faith. It wasn’t a smooth transition from his mind’s space of fear and unrest.
Maybe looking for a smooth transition is the wrong endeavor. Perhaps the wisest endeavor is to act in faith—to put my mind space on the truth of God’s Word. For those who love and follow Jesus Christ, for those who have humbly accepted Him as their Savior, He will bring us into heaven when we die. He will wipe every tear from our faces and give us new bodies. Bodies without pain, minds without torment, hearts filled with so much love for Jesus and each other that we will be filled with awe as we bask in the presence of the Creator of the world.
Let God show you your smooth transition through your difficult time.
Suzanne Provagna is a writer.