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I wonder what they think about me now?

I worked for a mission’s organization called Youth With A Mission, referred to as YWAM.  I was a recruiter who set up missions meetings in thirty-five cities east of the Mississippi. One weekend, a couple that organized meetings for me in South Carolina came to the YWAM center in Virginia where I lived. This couple really loved missions. They also had liked YWAM and respected the work we did. I was a little surprised when I found out what this couple really liked about our mission.

On Sunday morning we invited them over to our apartment for breakfast before church. I was trying to entertain my guests and help my youngest daughter get dressed for church. My little one, usually the picture of submission, was having a hard time listening to her dad.

Finally, I lost it and let her have it verbally in a very unloving fashion. As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I knew I was wrong and apologized to her. She forgave me as kids usually do. But we were in the room right next to where my guests were waiting. I thought to myself, I wonder what they think about me now.  Needless to say, it was a very awkward breakfast for me that morning.

After church, we went to lunch at a restaurant. Before we prayed for the meal, I decided I needed to get this thing off my chest. It didn't matter whether they had heard me or not. I needed to be known in my weakness and ask them to pray that I would be able to handle stress better.

As I told them the story, the husband got a huge smile on his face. He said, “That's what we like about you YWAMERS. You have the rhema in this area of openness.”

Wow! I saw more clearly than ever that I had been believing a lie.

What I wanted to hide, when revealed, didn’t bring shame but respect. In God's kingdom, honor is always preceded by humility. Be of humble heart. It is an honor.

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