I discovered that I worship money. I believe money will solve all my problems, which means I will never have enough money. Apparently, this is my mindset, but I am working to change it. I want to depend on God as my provider, not money.
Many people do the same, consciously or subconsciously. We depend on our income to solve our problems, especially in first-world countries.
I’m half Nigerian and lived in Nigeria for a couple of years when I was seven. I saw poverty I had never seen in America. Christians in Nigeria must depend much more on their faith to get by daily.
Jacob was a man who initially did not walk by faith either. Everything was about him. He stole the birthright from his older brother, Esau. But later, when he wrestled with God, God touched his hip, disabling him. Jacob came away with a limp that slowed him down and gave him a new identity. He would no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, or “God-wrestler.”
Jacob could not have wrestled with God in his own strength. God gave him the strength to wrestle with Him. God forced Jacob to rely on Him to survive the fight. He had to do it by faith. Then, by faith, he faced a brother he thought was mad at him and survived.
So, I will continue to wrestle with my mindset, replacing my fear of lack with faith that the Lord will provide for my needs no matter how much money I have in my bank account.
Think of unhealthy mindsets you may have. Then surrender them to the Lord and live by faith, not fear.
Damola Curtis is a former freelance journalist who started out writing poetry and ended up writing fiction. She was a member of a writing group in Boston for two years, which helped her come out of her shell and realize that she might be good at writing outside of journalism. She is a Starbucks gold card member and has worn many hats for different jobs.